I don’t know why I didn’t start this much sooner but we have finally hired a therapist for Red to help with his impulsivity issues due to his ADHD and to also help him work through potential abandonment issues. I have alluded to the fact that his biological
father donor is no longer in his life. He signed over his parental rights (a fact that Red doesn’t know at this time) and has been gone for over four years now. He is far better off and The Husband has been a hundred times the father to him than his bio father has ever been, but it’s hard to fight biology sometimes.
The therapist has come to the house three times already and is also working with me as well which is bringing up some stuff that I really don’t want to talk about, but I have to do what I have to for my kid. It’s been so hard watching him talk about this stuff. It’s been so hard to restrain myself from saying the truth, which is something that isn’t going to be remotely helpful to Red right now. In time he will see the truth but he is such a naive, sensitive kid. It’s hard to see him hurt and even harder to see him cry. Apparently he has needed to release this pain for some time now and I’m kind of kicking myself for not getting him in to talk to someone sooner. But we’re doing it now and I need to let go of the mommy guilt. Easier said than done, right?