I have a secret. I’ve been dealing with another bout of depression lately. It’s something that I’ve been living with for a very long time. It comes and goes but the worst funk happened when I became a single mom. At least I lost a lot of weight and looked pretty hot for a while, but it’s definitely not a weight loss regimen that I would recommend. But this time I’m gaining it. Bleh.
After I realized I was better off without “the donor” in our lives and got back on my feet the fog lifted and I began to live life again as a happier, healthier person. However, that was a very stressful time for me, both leading up to and living it for the first six months. I have heard that extreme stress and trauma can trigger a depressive episode and then BAM! You are more susceptible to it going forward. I’m not sure if there is scientific proof of this but in my case it has been true.
After a few years of relief I have once again been dealing with it pretty heavily for the past two or three years. Honestly, I’ve lost count of how long it’s been. The past couple of weeks have been tricky for me. I’m at a down point and am dealing with writer’s block, low confidence, and not a lot of motivation. Blah.
I am also not a very good mother these days. Okay, check that, I’m not the mother that I want to be these days. I am short with my kids and yelling more than usual. It is finally time for some help and I’m about to get really hippie-drippy and try essential oils.
I admit, I am very skeptical. I feel almost silly saying it out loud, to be honest. But I’ve tried antidepressants before and well, we don’t get along. If I can help it I will never take them again. So in a fit of desperation I ordered a bottle of Balance by doTerra. I am excited and hopeful. I would love to be able to treat this without chemicals and be me again.
What have I got to lose but this grumpy, moody, bored shell of myself?
Have you tried essential oils? How have they worked for you?
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